Binge eating?

AHHHHH i seriously need help. i've been binge eating everynight for the past MONTH, and tonight, i just had probably two pounds of cashew, a whole serving of fried rice, and i swear 10 packs of kit kats. i feel so gross and disgustng, and i just want to know if i'll get a heart attack from eating all that food. i think i consumed over 5000 calories today. i'm too scared to ask for help, so will someone give me some advice?!?